Friday, July 31, 2009

Still Joyfully Pregnant and Contentedly Waiting

"Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praise worthy--think on these things." Philippians 4:8

I feel so good. Crazy, huh? 2 wks ago I was miserable. Every part of my body ached, my cervix felt abused, my feet began to swell to look like piggy feet and ancles and I think DH was going to commit me if I didn't stop complaining and whinning. I woke up every morning crying because I was still pregnant. I was just sooo focused on getting this baby out! I wasn't truly listening to my body. I was listening to my emotional desires, my aches and pains. Not fun to ignore. I don't think I should have ignored them, but just accept them. Embrace them as apart of growing this beautiful baby inside me.
After trying the castor oil and baby didn't come, I woke up the next morning renewed. I placed a smile apon my face and decided to finish this pregnancy with a joyful attitude and not an attitude of negativity. I truly believe that attitude affects our view on things. I've always believed 90% attitude, 10%life). My body feels so much better. I'm not feeling the constant aches and brittleness of my hips any longer. The edema in my feet has completely disappeared and I just feel happy and content when it comes to being pregnant right now. I still dream almost every night about this birth and finally meeting baby, but it's a welcoming dream and not a pleading dream for baby to come out!
Sometimes it's easy to loose focus of our beliefs, no matter how passionate we are about them. When things get tough , human nature tends to take over and we become negative and discontented. I've done a lot of talking to God lately and reading scripture. I was able to re-focus on truth and that feels good.
It's been raining so much here. I love it. Seems to coincide with my re-newed outlook...being washed, clean, and can see clearly. I hope it rains when I do go into labor. I'd love to hear the rain while bringing baby into this world.

"Therefore do not worry about tommorrw, for tomorrow will worry about itself." Matthew 6:34

"My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long." Psalms 71:8

"Do not be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace that transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

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